+ emotional contact fight club +
jump into the coordinates of ur target desire. see who u are thru someone else.
+ notes from the fight club manifesto
the environment is intensely personal but this is NOT therapy. we do offer fdbk. not from the POV of ‘…this is what you need to do so you can have a healthy, nice, blah, blah, blah.’ we have zero interest in that. our focus is = how can this fight catalyze SO MUCH spark, honesty and creativity that the ripples change the quality of time.
+ there is no such thing as objective truth.
reality is a projection. have you noticed when someone receives an observation they don’t like, they often say ‘…you’re projecting.’ but if they like it, they say ‘…wow you really see me.’ both are projections. the difference is one matches their own perception; positive or negative, the other doesn’t. our proposal is projection is the only vehicle we have to see each other. imagine a film projected in a theater. i demand you stop this projection and show me the REAL movie. the real movie is an image burned onto a 2d cell. it’s information. projection is how i can experience the information. bc it animates my emotions. projection is what allows me an emotional experience of an evolving truth. when I see u through my lens; i can feel burned out parts of me. same in reverse; when I swim inside ur projections, i discover my myriad potentials thru you. when repeating these projections: chew the words. use your voice box as an electrical resonator. until the next strip of celluloid forms as words on ur tongue.
+ make them c u +
it’s called repetition; a game of observation. 2 people to a fight. u look and name what the other person is feeling or doing. example: ur sad, ur laughing, ur attracted to me. the other person repeats exactly what was said but changes the pronouns. if person A says ‘ur attracted to me’ — person B repeats ‘i’m attracted to you.’ even if they don’t think it’s true. it’s a chance to experience yourself inside another person’s perception. see what awakens, uncovers, unravels. repeat this phrase back and forth until someone notices something different and says that.
repeat.
the pace can be fast or slow. the emotion can be soft and gentle; aggressive and intense; or funny and absurd. it’s the spectrum of humanity. since you can’t tell a story, you need to use ur body and behavior to express while repeating which generates so much charge and aliveness. it’s sexy, vulnerable and miraculous. or boring. actually, that’s one of the rules: risk boredom.
whatever glitches you in reality will glitch you here. the difference is here the other person has permission to see your freeze, contraction, deflection, genius, brilliance, radiant whatever and NAIL you on it until u take a risk and change the pattern or EMBRACE it and feel the impact. which then releases and inspires ur partner. this is the fdbk loop of emotional contact. stay on your edge until it’s also their edge.
+ get inside+
+ reality is a video fdbk loop.
video feedback occurs when a camera ‘sees’ its own playback monitor. the playback monitor displays an interpretation or reconstruction of what the camera sees. so when the camera looks at the monitor, the camera observes ‘reality’ through the mechanics of its own operating system. this relationship induces an emergent pattern that remixes the source material into infinite combinations = this is the hologram.
+ fight club is not a reenactment. it’s a chemical rxn.
i’m repeating with you and i want to be angry or have a chance to explore / release my anger / sadness but when i look at you right now, i feel joy. yes. trust this. amongst the anger and sadness there is also joy.
there are multiple truths that co-exist and contradict. i open my mind until I can see how everyone is right. how these truths fit together into the hologram = whole message. this is how i am playing a mark in your game simultaneous with u playing a mark in mine; a paradox that seems to violate the laws of time.
+ reconciling paradox is key for slipping the gordian knot = an impossible challenge solvable by breaking made-up rules.
i can only create reality as wide as my vessel is able to carry the charge. when i am not able to reconcile internal agreement, reality will externalize the conflict so I may speak with my own operating system. it doesn’t matter if the other fighter agrees. what matters is if through the heat and pressure of this encounter, do i AGREE. this is how a trigger becomes a catalyst.
your move.
+don’t do It unless ur partner makes u+
+ fight club is a holographic bank heist.
we are remixing repetition with constellations. repetition is a game of observation that generates an emotional current between players. constellations siphon intelligence from morphic fields into a game of role-play. reality is a big, complex game of role-play. if you listen very closely you can catch it. everyone you interact with is looping a specific keyword sequence from a glitching memory. the structure of reality is made-up of spiraling memories that carry us into broadcasts of time. these broadcasts correspond with formations on earth. memory doesn’t only mean past lived experience. memory = bank of information. we can use connection to launder memories into new broadcasts of time which BANK our target desires. fight club is a holographic bank heist. repeat.
+ fight club diaries.
last night i took a lot of swings. i made many errors. inside this spread are flashes of genius. elizabeth gilbert speaks about genius. the origin of genius is genie. in ancient traditions it’s believed the genie is not something we are but a current we access. it moves through the fabric of our expression. the fights last night were a slow burn. i see this is my edge. making contact with the slow simmer so it can burn my logic grid, thru my emotional meltdowns, into new configurations of reality. this is the power and invitation of the time machine. we can augment the record of time; not only for our personal glitches / cycles, but for everyone who is connected, both known and unknown, and desires new circuits of creative potential. something we say in our game is this:
we are very good at this but not bc we are right. bc we are wired to hit your electric fence. the perimeter surrounding your glass of logic = how your reality operates. reality is neutral; it takes the shape of our logic. you can use our force-of-nature to open your mind, barf up your garbage and choose: who are you / who are you becoming. whatever you decide is ‘right…’ you decide the pace. we are here to tell u there is nothing to fear.
+ fight club diaries.
last night we hit the template; where the myths animate thru our emotional scripts and evolve. this is the gate into the next generation of human technology. it’s a perceptual upgrade that changes how our brains create reality. i had a very powerful after-hours fight. we found x marks the spot. where our desire crossed with our restrictions and thru this point of connection: a new version of ourselves became clear and available for embodiment.
we have another project, alien indiana jones. we run maizes through sacred sites around the world to retrieve genetic material from data storages embedded there. we play make believe for real. we made fight club because we knew it would reveal an important component for how we could better play inside the mythologies at the sites. our theory is that the myths, like our personal stories and identities, are also seeking evolution and reweaving. this process impacts our DNA and eventually = how we see what exists.
+ house rules.
reality is a hologram. 99.9% of everything we are and everything we see is empty space, wave functions and invisible quantum fields. i spent my childhood taking trips to Las Vegas = a quintessential made-up world. my father would sign markers in exchange for chips and after a few days we would exit this made-up world with real artifacts. real money, real debt, a real leather jacket. so it’s possible that what happens in a fantasy experience can have carry-over impacts in the so-called ‘real’ world.
in a casino, there are house rules. these rules weight games of ‘chance’ in favor of the house. my father played blackjack. he was an excellent player. so good that more than once; he was asked to leave the casino. this is what can happen when our gameplay recalibrates the odds in favor of the player. the house patrols activate. my father wasn’t cheating. he wasn’t counting cards either. he was watching wave patterns; risking high bets in the rising sets.
c u in the ring x
+ fdbk
‘I definitely put you among the top facilitators in the world. I go to all these self-development retreats and workshops and tonight I learned more about myself than I have in all of those other things. I find this is like the heart of what you can do, like, I don't know anybody that would do this better than you. I thought that I was authentic and direct and have this strength thing. And I find that in you, it's magnetized, 10 times. And I really, really appreciate it. I really connect to your way of safety, like, the transparency and the revealing is the safety that you're creating, which is a trigger for a lot of people. But in some people like me, this is what creates safety. So I find you have a way more punchy, adventurous way of bringing safety and authenticity and permission for people to just be themselves and for what is real to just exist. And I think you're so sharp. Like the word sharp, I think really represents your soul. Well, really I see an owl or a spear of some kind. Like you really have a warrior archetype. You know, a woman warrior, because you're also quite sexy. You have these beautiful, big eyes and there's something about you that's very, very warrior, like, in a sexy way. So I really liked that. And I feel even when you're bored or whatever (with what’s happening…), it feels like it's not because you're bored bc you don't like me, it goes beyond that. I can feel that you like me, just you expect more of me or want it. It’s pretty nice.’